Spring Blossom, Autumn Sorrows

Monday, March 19, 2007

Things aren't the same after i left DZ. Sky is overcast right now. It seems tat I have yet to find my sunny days. Listening to Rain's song"In my bed" right now. Without the youthful, dynamic, cheerful and easy-going students, I feel that something is missing from my life. Songs from Tank reminds me of SAndy and her clique, while songs from Fahrenheit reminds me of Supan and her clique. The bond between my students and I really transcend through the universe. Although without their presence, I can still continue to live but right now I feel empty. I guess the emptiness in my heart can never be replaced. Everywhere I go, images of the past floats around me. I am so helpless now.I am shackled chains of misery.Through the busy streets, I am abandoned and isolated at a corner. Although going on outings can help me to ease the pain, it just can't solve the problem. Can anyone notice the tears behind those smiles. I realli dun noe and dun care. My melancholy is drowned in the euphoric atmosphere. Many people warned me not to draw any strings and just do it for the sake of money but from day 1 I know this isn't gonna happen to me. Perhaps I am responsible for trapping in the abyss of darkness but I am not going to regret a single thing I do. If everything happens again in 1 million years later, I will still choose the current path. I do things with passion and feelings. Seriously, I give no damn shit about how much I earn and how people judge me. I just wanna be myself and enjoy things I do. Is that wrong?

he told the story ... 4:47 PM